Really I am? Take another test

so let me apologize for the next 10 months to come
i am so sorry i may turn into one of those people i hated
its all about me and my pregnancy...
OK so let me back up since its been a few days and the last we spoke I was waiting on the test results.
Yup it was faint but it was positive! So I took another ....and then another and then again the next morning...
One coool thing about this is after three months of trying for real-I found out I was pregnant on my husband's 33rd birthday! Happy Birthday!
ok here's a lil bit of what it feels like on the second day of knowledge (a conversation between best friends)
so where do we start? I know there's something you want me to research today!?
lilsis: you going to make a drs appt?
me: heehee well i am only three wks or two hng on?
lilsis: oh are you supposed to wait? I thought you were supposed to make a appt immediately so they can give you a blood test and get you on prenatals? of course what do I know?
me: no they dont wanna see you till u r at least six wks but i am gonna call them this afternoon incase. i have the script already for the prenatals i have been taking them they just cost a lot so i was kinda waiting and they give me the shits! lilsis: oh! cool! see you already know all the shit
me: heehee sort of . dude did u tell your sis-in-law to start my tomato baby hat!
lilsis: I did! I sent her an email last night...lemme find the I didn't tell who it was for tho
me: kewl tx ls
lilsis: it's so damn cute isn't it?
me: maybe i cant wait that long to not tell my mom is what i am thinking! u can tell her i dont care!
lilsis: I know!!! It will be hard cause it's so exciting!!!
me: i know...well a little exciting! right now i am a little overwhelmed like mom called me and said what i wanted for christmas from the pampered chef catalog! i really wanted to say nothing because u r gonna have to help me and my broke husband buy a crib!

Two Lines?

Well with some pregnancy tests it is...two lines are good...some two lines are bad (depending how you look at it but we are trying so..) and then there are those that have x's and o's! I freakin hate this stuff. I didn't want to spend that much money on the digital pregnancy test so I got the cheaper ones at the drugstore-FIRST HINT huge mistake-which took me like two hours to review each and every package as it was. So what should have taken me ten minutes this morning to take a freakin test (pee on a stick, wait two minutes and then read) really took me 35 minutes and that was holding it in-the whole time-because they say the best urine to test from is your first morning urine. Took me like 5 minutes to get the damn test out of the foil package, another ten to like read the damn instructions again (YES I read them =like 5 or 6 times already!) and then by the time i went to pee on the stick it was like stage fright and finally....Well you bet your ass I am going back this afternoon to buy the damn digital one. First of all, some of these tests you can't even try until after your missed period date and then some you have wait like four days after that. So I bought the ones you (still cheap) can test four days before your due period date, assuming I know the expected due period date! HAHAHAH I have never been really regular so what the hell would that date be! URGHHHH i am already so frustrated with this whole thing not to mention the pressure you put on yourself...jeeeesh I just need to have a glass of wine already and calm the freak down. OH YEah thats another thing...the whole two weeks we are trying I am not drinking ya know one glass of wine or a couple of beers. Please note: if you like beer, the best NA (Non-Alcholic) beer tasting like real beer is Becks! Yes NA has become a big part of our daily marital conversation and lemme not sugar coat this for you, not for one minute, IT SUCKS! Cuz he is still smoking and drinking and you just wanna die! All this and we excuse me..I AM NOT even pregnant yet..well maybe not yet????!!!!!!

Please read...TTC

If this isn't the best lil explanation of what some of us have gone thru or feel somedays than please try to put it into better words. I love this blog!
http://expectingwords.com/behind-closed-doors-trying-to-conceive

U want me to do what?

Seriously this ovulation thing is freakin crazy complicated and so wierd! I am just sticking to those sticks u pee on and counting out from my PD (period date)
oh yeah have i mentioned there's this whole language to learn when trying to make a baby BD (lovingly also known as baby dance)! No wonder people always screwed up and just gave in to the moment!
I mean really the book of helpful hints from my doctor wants me to check my mucus FROM DOWN THERE?!?! yuck really i am 34 years old but dude there has gotta be a better way AND u think I remember to take my temperature every morning? JEESH you are lucky I remember to brush my teeth.
and then there is that book i found at the used bookstore about How to choose the sex of your baby or whatever the title is-dude some stuff was interesting i will give it that really...but some of it is so grossss! Is this all just an inkling of how nasty 9 months and childbirth are????? I am scared...